Where I Want to Be

Where I want to be is not where I am right now. This has been a retrospective week for me. Partly because of some events that happened that blew my world upside down and caused me to hang on for dear life. Partly because its approaching the holidays and I miss my mother every Christmas. And partly because of the music I have been listening to in my car. I have one CD in my shared vehicle (One Voice) and when I get in the car, I switch it from the radio to the CD player. I’ve been listening to this one CD for weeks now and lately only one song. I get stuck on those single songs sometimes…listening to the words and thinking about what the song really means. This song has been cutting into my heart because where I am, is not where I want to be.

It’s predominantly a love song, but if you take a closer look its about choices. Choices that we make in our lives that define who we are and where we are going. Sometimes we make choices out of obligation, or because we feel pressured or pushed into a corner. Sometimes we make choices because we don’t have any and there is only one choice at the time for survival. Sometimes we make choices that seem right at the time but circumstances change and we feel trapped. But whatever choices we have made in our lives, should not keep us drowning in mediocrity and spending the rest of our lives in regret. We can’t settle for anything less than the dream that God has given us. Anything short of that makes our lives miserable and meaningless.

I’m looking forward to the day when I can claim these words as my own:

“I know my way is free…knowing I’m where I want to be’s the way I live, and now days are always new….”

If you're not where you want to be right now, all you have to do is walk through those “doors to new worlds” and know that once and for all your “way is free”. It takes courage, but its worth all the blessings you will find in the future.

Wishing I were there right now,
Texas Fanilow