I Let Myself Believe

I should have known right from the start
You never understood the feeling in my heart
I thought that you were just afraid
Or maybe just naïve
And so I let myself believe again

I let myself believe that you could love me
I let myself believe that you would stay
Oh I swore I’d never do this go through this again
But I let myself believe and now I can’t believe
You’ve gone away

I should have learned from times before
Why can’t I stop myself from coming back for more
I fall too fast
I say too much
My heart is on my sleeve
And then I let myself believe again

I let myself believe that you could love me
I let myself believe that you would stay
Oh I swore I’d never do this go through this again
But I let myself believe and now I can’t believe

The signs are always there as they were with you
And still I did what I always do

I let myself believe that you could love me
I let myself believe that you would stay
Oh I swore I’d never do this go through this again
But I let myself believe and now I can’t believe
You’ve gone away.

This song literally breaks my heart. It's along the vein of Streisand's famed My Man. What makes someone keep coming back time after time for rejection? Is it insanity? Is it being stuck in a pattern of abuse? Is it unconditional love?

Honestly, I can't understand it myself. Maybe because I've never loved like that. Or maybe because it's not fair or just and that bothers me. But I'm told that when you love like that, your heart won't let you let go. Even if it might never be returned or realized. Maybe that is the greatest love we have to give...one that never gives up.

Introspective,
Texas Fan

P.S. I found the photo on Scooter Talk (thanks Scooter for the perfect photo for this song)